nighttimes

Wrote this last night in my notes cause I couldn't sleep. I never like to think that I'm a sensitive person... But these feelings and thoughts come out of me when I try to close my eyes at night here...


Writing this as I watch 희진, 지윤, 미혜, 나영 sleep. I think I love them. I have to look away because I'm about to cry. How can someone throw some of these kids away.. I just want them to comprehend an ounce of the love He has for them. That He desires them vehemently and loves them for doing nothing at all.  I do understand a little. How it feels to never seem to measure up. Never being enough for somebody I cared so much about. Giving all of me and still not being enough and still wanting them when they clearly didn't want me. The pain in them must be so much deeper, much uglier than mine. Not being enough for their own parents. We, at home, try so hard to stay away from these people that really love us. But we don't know what we're doing. We're deceived. I come here and all these girls want is to be with their mom and dad. I ask how I can pray for them. Every one of them ask me to pray for them to be reunited with their families. Quickly. Some don't even want to get married because they know it means they would have to live away from their families again.. a ten year old.. We don't know. They idolize the parents that couldn't give up their addictions or their laziness to be with their own children. Someone once saw that pain in me and  prayed that God would speak value and destiny into my life. I have faith that God is doing that in me and that He will do that through me for these souls.  지연 하은 성현 의진 희진 지윤 미혜 나영 하정 은비 아름 I break every lie over your lives and I pray joy and confidence and a never ending overflow of love in your lives. I pray for prosperity wherever you go and in whatever you do. And mostly i pray that each and every one of you will have an indescribably deep and eternally intimate relationship with the God who calls you the crown in His hand, whose thoughts of you are precious and number more than the sands of the sea..  


 Woke up looking like I ate ten ramens and a pho. 
 Please keep praying for us all! 


 hannah